hold on

you waited in darkness
to hide your sorrow and pain
you were fighting a losing battle
that no one ever won

in grief you mask the hurt
you carried false smiles in your pockets
and at night you drink the bitterness
as you cried yourself to sleep

in vertigo you lead your life
till you had nowhere to go
you tried to make it all go away
till you heard a voice from within

hold on, don’t give up
don’t throw all your dreams away
hold on, carry on the fight
everything will be alright

you tried to make amends
you go on like everything’s well
you held your head up high
till the emptiness haunts you

you kept up with all the struggles
you prayed for redemption
and when all is lost
you tell yourself, “hold on..”

song for stan

it must have been conspiracy
when you and I came to be
such a blessed serendipity
a rendezvous at destiny’s journey

you were my fountain of mirth
yet your eyes speaks of silent sorrow
I drew my strength from you
To lend out at your moments of despair

You shared your life to me
And I gave you my absolute trust
Every empire shall fall and crumble
But our bond shall be eternal

And as our spirits collide
So shall they break and burn
With one fatal fault
Every laughter was drowned by tears

Now all that’s left is a spark of hope
Which shall heal our wounded souls
I shall endure till time comes
That our fates intertwine once more

my silent plea

let this be my silent plea for redemption
let this be my quiet cry for hope
let me beg for forgiveness
for all my faults and failures

I have wept and bled
I have fallen in deep pit of agony
Yet I have risen and survived
To rest my broken soul

Let this be my prayer
Let this show my heart’s desire
Let the fires of hatred be extinguished
Let the circle of trust be whole again