Uncommitted

How can I tell you
That I don’t wanna hurt you
Never wanna make you cry
It would hurt me, too

I know how it feels
To be in pain and despair
Break down and fall apart
After all, I’ve been there before

How can I let you know
That I care
My life you share
You have been a part of it, too

But now I’m lost
In a night full of stars
The moon was there
But you were not

How can I leave
Where I never was
A crack in a wall
Too strong against resistance

Tell me now
What I must do
How to make things right
In a world full of wrongs

The One

Sometimes I wonder
If there’s someone for me
The missing piece
Of my lonely broken soul

Love passes me by
Without even saying “hi!”
Or did it smile
Just when I looked away

I often sigh and worry
That I have already found
The true love of my life
But failed to see it

She may be staring
And kissed me from afar
But I was too busy to notice
The damp air on my lips

Or I may have drowned myself
In her deep pretty eyes
And sought safety in the lashes
But a friend called from behind

If I have turned my back
To love in front of me
I won’t live a happy life
Not without you near me

If there is such a word
As fate or destiny
Then somehow we’ll find our ways
To a love everlasting

But until then I’ll wait
For those gentle hugs and sweet carress
I’ll just wish on my lucky star
That I’ll bump by you tomorrow

Tribute to Den

For my brother
For a friend that could be
For the smiles you shared
For the life you lived

For the endurance you showed
For the lies you told
For the battle you fought
For the goodbyes you bade

For the vision you see
For the lesson we learn
For the wisdom you bequeathed
For the liberty you paved way for

For the life you lived
For the smiles you share
For you, my brother
Through existence and beyond…

Not Without

Songs without the melodies
Poems without the rhymes
Are certainly better
Than poetry without a heart

Beauty that has no face
Sweetness over grace
I would prefer
Than mere desire and obsession

Sun ‘neath the soft white clouds
Full moon with orange and gray around
These things I like
Not a star without shiny sparkle

Novels with few characters
Stubborn and carefree
Books I would choose
Over pages with empty words

What would life be
Without passion and love
How could I die
When I didn’t live in the first place

Let Me Cry

Let me cry now
Feel the hurt and the pain
Live in misery and despair
Let me be for a while

Let me mourn now
For the lost dreams
For the broken hearts and stolen promises
For the future that will never be

Let the tears flow now
Let the rains fall
Let the sun set
Let the stars wander in lone

Let me be blue now
Seek refuge in the dark
Be lost in the wilderness
And drown myself in loneliness

Let me cry and mourn
Let tears find its way
Let me fall apart
Let me break down

For the rivers will run dry
And my eyes will, too
For I shall never cry again
And never will I have to cry anymore

Endlessly

I never knew Venus was reincarnated
Till I saw you passing by
I never believed in Cupid
Till I felt a soft ache in my heart

I wish I could have borrowed an arrow
I would have shot myself
But for a while I’ll be contented
If you tell me your name

Do the Greeks call you Aphrodite
Or were you the fusion of Persephone and Demeter
Cause I saw a yellow tulip blooming
When you spared nature a smile

Was it the magic in your hair
That I can’t help but sigh
Am I just dreaming
Or would I happen to be in heaven

I was surprised I can see the clouds
And that there was no halo in your head
Or did I just fail to notice
The pair of wings hiding ‘neath your long white dress

How could I tear myself
From the pretty brown eyes
Would it be too much to know
How you make it sparkle

Would you slap me in the face
If I would confess
That I wanna taste the sweetness
Of your soft red lips

Is it love that I’m feeling
I have never known it till now
Please tell me, darling
Could love be this strong

How could I have known you forever
When I have met you just now
Could it be I have loved you
Long before I knew you

How long do I have to wait
Before you kiss me
What will it take to convince you
That I will love you endlessly

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Last night I saw a star
Alone in the vast midnight
Shining softly, shining clearly
Staring coldly at me

I looked around and saw city lights
Too many, too much
That I long to look at you
To be with you much more

But you seem so far away
Too far for me to reach
It seem as though I can’t be with you
No matter how I try to

I saw you then
Slowly hiding beneath the clouds
That you barely show
Till I see you no more

But I know you’re just there
Looking from afar
I don’t know how, I don’t know when
But I know I’ll see you again

But I’ll wait for the day
That the sun will shine for us
Is it tomorrow, is it never
I don’t know, I don’t know

Rain of Tears

I want to hurt you like you did
I want to cause you pain
I want you to feel the heartache
I want you to know the loss

I want you to cry a rain of tears
For every drop I’ve shed
Sleep devoid of hope
Wishing your demise

I want to push you to the edge of sanity
Till the numbness sinks in
To the point of agony
To the depths of no return

I want you to see life is not pretty
That it is totally unfair
That it would not treat you
With the same kindness you’ve given

I want you to struggle alone
To find no one around to comfort you
I want your soul to be burnt and broken
Never to be whole again

I want you to float in oblivion
To drown in an infinite limbo
To suffer in nothingness
To breathe the thin black smoke

I want you to freeze in cold fire
To fall into obsession
To hold unto false deliverance
To choke in the loudest silence

I want you to hurt like I did
I want you to revere apathy
I want you to obsess in the impossible
I want you hurt endlessly

But above all, I want you to realize
That I’d rather die a thousand deaths
That to see a drop of sadness from you eyes
If you hurt like I did

Northern Star

Here I am again
Looking at the stars
Hoping this could be the night
That you will set me free

Why am I still wishing
That we’ll be together?
And it doesn’t help to know
That I know we are meant to be

It remains a mystery
How we could ever be
When we have thrown it all away
And sworn never to go back

Oh my northern star
Listen to me
Grant my wish
Come back to me

I look at you
You look back at me
But it wasn’t the same
When you were still with me

Here I am again
Still longing
Please don’t let me wait forever
Take me away now

To a place where I belong
To a time we both still remember
Where dreams do come true
When you still keep me

I’m tired of waiting here
But something inside me is telling me
To hold on when I’m about to give up
God knows how I’ve tried

And when you come home
I’ll be here
You still linger in my soul
And you shall always be